gettysburg allies just invited us to a barbecue, with a real grill this time, on friday at 6. short notice and all but since i can't remember sarah's email i thought i'd post it here. ok, that's all. let me know if anyone wants to go.

i just sat through a lunch at the museum of people telling anti-france jokes, and a lady who was telling me a joke about straight people i'd understand when i get married and have kids. and also, a hood student told one of the french exchange students that the french were primitive and stupid, and the dining hall served freedom toast. sigh. why must americans be so incredibly stupid. and rude. and awful. uhm, france is why we are our own country. France gave us our international symbol of freedom and welcome which we have never lived up to. we suck people, us, not the French who have suffered war in ways that no American can understand, or the germans who have suffered the same. notice the trend...two countries that have tried to take over the world and failed...and here we go off to waterloo again. the director of the museum said "texas is bigger than france" but in france they have a highly evolved and literate people unlike the knuckle draggers that make up texas. yikes man, yikes.

i had an ant in my pants people. literally. but on the bright side, no more classes, except for studio clean up. and my final. and my internship and the project i have to finish for it. but yay. i'll probably have to go and see my sister on saturday and come back monday. i'll be home for a WHOLE DAY. it is necessary. i could hang around just to miss a day of supervision but i'll miss all my people. so much packing to do. oooh, but my mom is going to give me money for a haircut. I wonder if she's seen my cell phone bill. it's only 20 dollars more that normal...that's not soooo bad...is it? oh well, it's been done. a phone with a maine number is my first priority when i get paid. getting sleepy...more interesting stuff tomorrow!

"I'll tell him I'm blind, you tell him your skin's falling off" uttered by Ryan while we were researching recruiting exemptions. I'm still laughing, civil war humor. we have these two documents of gys who tried to get out of service, and they were in line together, and we thought it was funny. moving on. it is a beautiful day, and i was only a little late. I called the art people again this morning but she wasn't home. i'll keep trying. you know, i think i'm on crack or am delirious because everything i hear lately is just so funny. i have been giggling for days. it's giddiness. graduation giddiness. i have to take all of my things to goodwill, and i have to do a lot of old schoolwork, but i finished one of my books...just one more to do. YAY!

bitched at tete for parking in our spaces...good times!

i have a temporary plan. I am looking for a part time job with benefits, that is year round, so i won't be screwed. maybe even a full time job with benefits...hmmm. reception here i come. there's one at the breast center at the MDI hospital. would i not be fabulous at the breast center?

i got a call about a random job in New York City. tres bizarre. should i call back? do i want to live in new york. not so much...

i have a republica song stuck in my head. do we know how long it's been since i've heard this republica song. like more than 5 years people. damn.

i'm leaning toward the Bar Harbor job. although the inn would be really cool, i would have to be working like all the time. hmmm folks, hmmm. also, i called them back but didn't actually accept the job. but i thought it would be nice to call them back.

something weird happened to my blog...

would it be wrong to take the job with more flexibility even though i'd have to drive a lot. more flexibility and more money. unless you count my expenses...err. i don't know. it might be good not to be so very tied down as at the inn, you know. each job has it's benefits. sigh to my indecisiveness.

i was hoping someone would say good pizza, god bless you sarah!

i'm not so much at class. i don't so much want to get up, or finish my journal. BAD AMY!

i want the inn people to callllll meeeeee. we'll see. i'm writing m journal and i don't want to, and i don't want to go to class anymore. and i don't want to drive ever again. on the upside kirsten brought us beautiful rainbow tassles for our graduation regalia. i have to send a thankyou note to annie's mom. i must remember. back to silly journals now.

IdiotProdigy: you're gonna live with ghosties
IdiotProdigy: hahahahaaaa

she's mean!


p.s. my apartment at the inn has a ghost...i have a picture...

i love and miss you all and i can't wait to get back tomorrow. i'm currently skipping out on easter with the family. the inn was nice, the apartment is huge. the pay is good and it includes housing and food prepared by a master chef. let's hope they liked me. and they call soon. yay. i miss and love you all...see you sooooooon

I'm home. i was in the car for a long time. lots of traffic. going up to the inn tomorrow. wish me luck. my mom's new phone is cool, it actually reaches from my ear to my mouth. i miss everyone allready and i'm tired and grumpy. poor amy. i'm off to bed. sarah i miss you more than your tv too...but then i have your tv. mwahahaha. love you all, bye

i keep clicking on these blog links that look very cute and totally english and then it's always german or something. why can't every one speak english? geez, some people. I'm in a very uncreative slump today. i broke out of the office because i needed an iced tea from beans and bagels. i got a large for 95 cents. this is a bargain folks, and they have sugar in the raw. meanwhile, i've accomplished very little although it is exciting that everyone liked my case so much. and i have a package at facilities. although i think it must be wrong because i'm not expecting anything. maybe it's those blocks sarah? we'll see. maybe i'll convince myself i need to leave early to go get it. i really am wasting time here...can't think of a damn thing to say about recruiting exams. did everyone know that you could get out of the civil war for excessive baldness. also thanksgiving on the 4th thursday of november was lincoln's idea. not those silly pilgrims after all. i'm learning so much. did anyone have major power trouble this morning? i don't get why it goes out so often. i was hoping maybe they were putting on the air or something. the phone keeps ringing, i can't stand it. there's no one up here...stop calling. i really can't stand any sustained noise anymore. birds this morning, very loud, and then lawnmowers. if it wasn't so balmy one could close the window on the offensive noise but it's not to be done. also there were three fire engines down patrick street today. it sounded like they were going the wrong way but i heard no crashes. the good thing about maine...no horrific sounds. i'm intrigued about this package. it could be a suprise. it could be not for me at all and then it will be very disappointing. i have to get a car chargemups for the phone today. i was going to do that right after this but i have a package and the exhiliration of having a package is ranked way above trying to miss afternoon traffic. you know what i learned ast night in class. bechtel built the chemical companies in iraq that we're all pissed about now. even after, or possibly for or during the iran war when they used mustard gas against the iranians. bechtel just gave the museum two used computers today. it's nice that they can share the profits of killing with the community huh? Everyone just came back up en masse. maybe i should feign working. nah. no one really seems to care. there is no such thing as deadlines here. maybe i should get directions for this weekend...

the director really liked the case i did in the front lobby on monday. he is telling everyone to go look at it and to come up and tell me how much they liked it. life sucks, gets immense praise. I'm starving. I think i'm going back to hood for lunch. i have to do so many things before i leave. busy busy amy. should be doing some writing for collections but i can't think. i keep trying.

I have two job interviews for this weekend. woohoo. this other one is for an art gallery which i would heart alot. ofcourse, we all know i'd rather be an innkeeper. with an apartment, and a year round job. but. hey. a job is a job. yay for two interviews.

going to maine by myself this weekend. any takers. i thought not. hopefully i'll get the job and it'll be worthwhile. or i could start drinking heavily. we'll see

called the inn people. she's gonna think about the video thing. i told her i might be able to come up this weekend...she said i could stay there. hmmm. she's gonna get back to me. annie has offered to fly with me...grr to flying but yay to no 12 hours in the car. i should be working...but oh well. only one hour left. see you all soon!

spent alot of money on clothes yesterday. have to return something... apparently someone at the prom superglued eyelashes on. bad idea folks, bad idea. ps did anyone else notice our freshmen and bix? i also have a job interview as an innkeeper. wouldn't that be fun? it's a 10 month position unless you want to run the b&b yourself in january. it would be very cool. must go interview. very exciting. it's 6 days a week. anyway, moving on. my cold seems to be improving this morning, although last night i was very icky. we think i was just tired because the cold really isn't so bad. although i thought i was going blind at the mall with mimi. my eyes were very ouchy.

roar. i bought a dress today. i have to do lots of work for my internship. i'm watching national lampoon's vacation and they have one of those really old computeres that work with your tv as the monitor. my friends had one of those. a long time ago. i had to go through my whole closet to find shoes for my dress. sigh. i want a kitty. i heart kitties. soft, furry. annie sent me a kitty today because she's the best. yay.

i'm watching new evidence on the kennedy shooting. there are pictures of guys on the knoll...there's one guy taking pictures and he's interviewed...and he felt shots next to him, and then further over there are two guys, one dressed as a police man and one as a railroad man. there are the shooters...there are a few pictures of them but they'rereally small in the photos. and the fbi offered to pay this other guy to keep quiet because he saw the police guy pass the gun to the railroad guy who took it apart and walked away. yikes people. also annie, don't forget pat's birthday.

someone said it was hard to read so i've changed the font. hope you all approve.

we're discussing making wounds to send out with the trunk. it would be really cool if we could send out an arm with a bullet in it. hehehe

cleaning out my room. giving goodwill lots of things. and amy mas shoes. i have so much crap. i have a bag of things...and more to go, only i don't feel like going into the top of my closets. what to do with my fridge. it's really old, someone gave it to me and it's covered with powerpuff girls. maybe my cousin will need a fridge. i have to drink about a thousand gallons of tea before may. do we think i can give away my stuffed animals? i have to someday right? we'll see. i have to give away my feather boas too...if anyone wants them. i'm about to work on cover letters and resumes to go out tomorrow am. for sure.

von, i tried to post a comment on your blog but it wasn't working. i was being sarcastic, there is no pressure to write. going dress and tux shopping today. woohoo. have to return the other dress...it's just not right. thanks for coming with me though amy.

lots of things to do today...going to internship late. tsk to me.

no one can know how hard a decision it is that i have to make about what i'm going to do with my life. i won't take any pressure from anyone, i put enough pressure on myself as it is. i refuse to put other people's peace before my own.

the museum staff is discussing a possible donation to the museum. a donation of small pox scars from 1880. yikes man. thre are so many yikes for that. yike one...uhh why would someone want to save small pox scars, yike two the cdc wants to have a talk with us, yike three is just plain ew. i haven't been very productive in like office things today, but i have had a nice day. i sat on the canal for lunch...and lay in the grass and the sun was so bright. if i didn't have to come back here i would have felt rather alive. I desire to go shopping later...maybe if kirsten has a good appt. I'm trying to pretend to do work. no one really cares. I am getting something out of my internship...just not the sort of things one would expect. my supervisor and the director's daughter were discussing creed and some decipel(sp?) concert that they are going to. also a pilgrimage and a christian youth rally in baltimore. i smiled and nodded. whoa dudes, whoa. i've never seriously heard people discuss the merit of creed before but there you go. it is such a beautiful day. it really is. i am in love with today. there is cake out there for someone's birthday. do the rewards of cake equal the detriment of socializing. i don't think i'm an unsocial person but much of the time here i just sit in the office. is it fear of social ineraction with folk so completely different from me. I do fear coming out to them...it's not at all necessary to my position and so why bother. doo dee doo. i have an hour and a half left here. i haven't yet talked to ryan about skipping out for lunch on friday for the peer supporter thing. almost none of the other ps can stay for the training. i think ashley and i are going to be the only mentors. maryann always looks to me to do these things and i really don't think i'm such a fabulous mentor. I'm mad that no one is available. I'm not available either but i feel a need to make myself available because no one else will. grrr. it's not at all that i mind leaving here for a bit...although i do have more hours to make up than i with to think about. I mind that no one else makes sacrifices for this commitment. granted i skipped supervision last week...but the week before ashley and rebecca skipped(which rebecca does all the time) because they had too much work to do. maryann asked me to stress the seriousness of the commitment...this is ofcourse before i skipped...so there won't be people absent all the time. more fab mentor qualities. i don't even really know what i'm chatting about except that it's not small pox or war related.