i do feel a bit bad about only blogging when something shitty happens, my mind is just overloaded at the moment. that raise that took 3 months to materialize is not what i thought it would be. it is however a %16 raise and i guess i should be happy. but i thought it was going to be more like %19 and that is what i thought i was accepting. i've been alternately angry and weepy about it and i'm not sure what i should be feeling. i'm angry that it took so long to materialize and that i missed three months of opportunities waiting. i'm also angry that i have to wait another unknown amount of time to hear whether or not i'm worth 32 more cents. where is the dignity in that?

things that aren't bad are as follows: i've been meaning to rent bride and prejudice i just haven't gotten around to it. i do have a post it on my wall to remind me. and also my address won't change, unless i change jobs. that's the beauty of a post box and also delivery is really sparse in town.
i am going to see an apartment tonight. the rent is cheap, but you have to pay all utilities including water and sewer and oil. i can have my kitty, but there's no parking. which will get old. but i wouldn't have to drive. if there's no lease it might be a consideration. and i'll just keep the thermostat set to morgue. it'll be fine.